The (presently) disorganized musings of a self deprecating 20-something.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
December 5 – Let Go.
What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?
It's bed time, so let's make this snappy. I may come back and edit this into something more substantial later. For now it's going to be an indulgent run on sentence. Or a really long list of naval gazing.
I let go of the idea of what I thought I had to be to be good enough for him.
I let go of City #2.
(Which was part of what I thought I had to be to be good enough for him.)
I [almost entirely] let go of wanting to be good enough for him.
I let go of feeling like my exes were worth their trouble.
I let go of what I thought I had to be to be good enough for everytone else. A little bit. (You know what? I HATE apartments, I HATE living too far from my family and I think that many trendy big cities are too impressed with themselves, and that injures their capacity for actual community.)
I let go of my libido. This is not a good thing. I miss it a lot.
I let go of both of them. It hasn't been easy, and I'm embarrassed that it's been hard.